Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Random thoughts II ~ Weakness

It's amazing how one can find out their own weaknesses one after another....It's very frustrating to know one's own weaknesses as you know that others will take advantage of it or pledge disgust to it.... How in this world can one hope to live in a world where there is no prejudice??

I just discovered not one but two of my weaknesses today....I am not proud of them....though I should be as they are a part of what makes me who I am....It's just that....knowing your weaknesses makes you even weaker....all the grief and regret....all the while asking yourself " How did I get this way? "....It's unbearable....

I wish...oh I wish that somehow I'll be able to overcome these weaknesses of mine....I may not be able to conquer them completely but at least I'll be able to say...."I tried"....no one can undermind me then....

Trying is another matter....whether you want to try and think that you've made a better person of yourself or....you might be turning into something that you've hated all along....It's a hard decision to make but you'll have to make it someday....I can express the emotions that I'm feeling at this very moment but....I think this is a good way to overcome problems in life....

I know that I often handle things very very badly but....that's just how I do and It's what I think is right....you might say that what you're doing is the 'correct way' but whether I think that you're right in my books is a whole different matter 'cause well....some may have different ways of handling things and others another....

Listen to the tune of the soothing keys of the piano and release all the tension you've been keeping inside of you...or fall into the abyss of self regret and loathing....

I'll express the rest some other time so now I say see you....=S